Courage

A girl in my group at Selah House told me about a CD by Superchick. Superchick is a Christian alternative band. I normally don't go "alternative"--I'm more of a Point of Grace girl, but she spoke so highly of the lyrics in some of the songs that I decided to get the CD (title: Beauty from Pain). Oh my goodness, there is a song on there called Courage, and I seriously feel like I wrote it. Each time I listen to it, I feel a deep stirring in my soul. It takes quite a bit of vulnerability to post the words on here because I hate to admit weakness, and this song does just that. So here are the words:

Courage

I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
And for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be ok
Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm ok
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not ok
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be ok
Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but what I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be ok
Together we can make it through another day